Hi Dears,
It's June so:
Happy Pride Month
It's been ages since I celebrated a Pride. Not that I will walk, I don't like walking down the streets anymore, if you do it with convictions that's understandable and legit but I feel too overwhelmed to get mixed in a big crowd, so I don't walk anymore.
Not that I don't feel proud , but it's true that lately it left me. From being a lesbian to dating men it makes you wonder a bit "am I legit?" "what's that fake in this story?"
I still don't know. I know woke people would say, the most important is too feel ok with who you are. Yeah yeah. But in the end, if you havent been in our shoes you can't talk.
We look heterosexual to people when in the end, changing our sexuality, changing our romanticism isn't it the queerest ?
And still we appear to be the more in the norm, so less legit to be part of the flag.
I don't really question myself anymore, I just wait and let it happen.
Thats how I figure out that instead of only speaking of het or homosexuality could we mention more of the gray-sexuality? The one when you don't really know. The one where you just let it happen or definitely don't let it happen. Cause it doesn't matter.
Could we consider us being a part of the queers one day ?
I don't feel like I am waiting for an approval anymore, but now that I stopped being angry about feeling rejection because I was suddenly not that interesting dating men, I just wonder.
And I can say, this year I am proud. I am proud to wonder, I am proud to change, I am proud to be able to feel what I feel for the person I chose.
Outfit:
Jacket thrift
Earring thrift
Top : Action
Belt and Capri Pants : Hell Bunny
Creepers: TUK
Love,
Lorna
xxx
