Grayish

Hi Dears,

It's June so:

Happy Pride Month 

It's been ages since I celebrated a Pride. Not that I will walk, I don't like walking down the streets anymore, if you do it with convictions that's understandable and legit but I feel too overwhelmed to get mixed in a big crowd, so I don't walk anymore.

Not that I don't feel proud , but it's true that lately it left me. From being a lesbian to dating men it makes you wonder a bit "am I legit?" "what's that fake in this story?" 

I still don't know. I know woke people would say, the most important is too feel ok with who you are. Yeah yeah. But in the end, if you havent been in our shoes you can't talk. 

We look heterosexual to people when in the end, changing our sexuality, changing our romanticism isn't it the queerest ?

And still we appear to be the more in the norm, so less legit to be part of the flag.

I don't really question myself anymore, I just wait and let it happen.

Thats how I figure out that instead of only speaking of het or homosexuality could we mention more of the gray-sexuality? The one when you don't really know. The one where you just let it happen or definitely don't let it happen. Cause it doesn't matter.

Could we consider us being a part of the queers one day ?

I don't feel like I am waiting for an approval anymore, but now that I stopped being angry about feeling rejection because I was suddenly not that interesting dating men, I just wonder.

And I can say, this year I am proud. I am proud to wonder, I am proud to change, I am proud to be able to feel what I feel for the person I chose.

Outfit:

Jacket thrift

Earring thrift

Top : Action

Belt and Capri Pants : Hell Bunny

Creepers: TUK

Thanks to Lara Guffroy for this pre summer series!

Love,

Lorna

xxx

 

Women dress

Seriously Marble

 

Hi Dears,

Do you have one of those days when you can't help thinking why is everyone acting so serious ? Like, I often see girls on Instagram or Youtube being very pro, very classy (or not) but giving their best image and then when I look at the type of photos I do, I'm noticing I'm not that singular and I'm like "yeah well I don't smile much either". But why is that that we all have to keep a straight face if we want to be taken seriously? 

The other day I was at the dentist and she had to gave me an injection for the anesthesia and I don't know why but that made me very funny in my head afterwards (what the hell did she give me though) so I wanted to laugh all the way back to my apartment lol

And I kept my mask on so nobody could see that I was laughing at the things (completely absurd) I was saying in my head. And it got me thinking I always do this, i often say something funny and then just laugh all alone. Am I that crazy or do some other people do this hahaha

Maybe that's why I tend to post A LOT on social medias when I have something on my mind.

Anyway, I'm looking at those pictures which I find super pretty but I can't stop picturing myself as a caricature. 

Maybe it's time that I find some other way of posing. Or maybe it's time for people to stop looking all alike on social medias and do funny faces instead. 

📸 Virginie Zilbermann

Love,

Lorna

xxx

Outfit:

Top: Collectif clothing

Socks: Shein

Creepers: Killstar