Ghost in my shell

Hi Dears,

I had a blast this weekend ! Made me come out of my shell for the first time in months.

Let me explain.

So I had this concert planned for months, and I wanted to go so bad as it was kind of an emo revival to me and I wanted to keep this going since last summer, when I realized it made me feel very good to accept a part of my past. Which I found a bit ridiculous at first, but damn so many memories when I listen to A day to remember though haha

So the concert was actually Bring Me the Horizon, and they mainly played "new" songs which weren't out yet when i was in high school, it's a bit more "pop"and famous than the firsts albums but I think that's how they got such a great enthusiasm from the youth now. Which leads me to the most important aspect of this weekend to me:

I finally released some tension off my shoulders and I turned my bitterness the other way round.

I used to be kind of fed up with the newest generations because they got everything very easily from Spotify, when we worked our ass off to have access to some part of subculture, "copied" our looks -- that we used to have (or still have) when we were considered as outcasts and being bullied. Blablabla, all that boomer crap.

I had troubles with accepting that this can be part of a new 2020 trend. 

But as I looked at the crowd , and met new people (Lorna made new friends lol) I finally got to the point that the atmosphere was kind and cute. There were no race of who knows better than who and people having a judgmental behaviour like I so often see in the metal subculture. And goth.

So I said to myself "you know what Lorna, remember when all those elders gave you a hard time to be accepted and when you desparetly seeked their approval?" Let's not do this to them. And this is what I felt in the crowd. So, of course, there were some groupies (but lol I'm so one of them tbh) and young people drinking without being really selfconscious (ugh, but that's maybe because I don't drink anymore it annoys me now lol).

I still felt that our generation, the Millenials, were very gentle towards the Gen Z and Alpha, like wanted to discuss and share songs and lyrics it was very appeasing to me to be in a soft environment like this. I think as in my workplace I'm getting stressed out a lot, I needed that.

Anyway, regarding the Gen, I notice how we could do some changes.

Instead of having the same behaviour than the Gen X who are doing the same as the Boomers "yes but that's not how we did it", "back in the days" all that crap. Instead of making someone feel like shit, why not just hold their hand and share what we can have in common.

I don't know, just some random thoughts. It might be a bit too naive you will say. But for

 Angry Bitter Lorna, this is means a lot.

Meaning I can feel the wind changing and maybe say hello to my opposite side once again. 

Shiny Happy Lorna 

xxx

Love,

Lorna

Credits Photo: Jordan Dorey

(How amazing that the first pic looks literally like the Bi-flag right)

Latex dress from Pandora Deluxe

 

Memento Mori

 

Hi guys,

A couple of rough last weeks I had. I came back to work after one month of break and rest and it was brutal. Didn't really know if they wanted me here, feeling guilty for a lot of reasons, and just well, for being here and being me.

I have this constant feeling, of being torn between what is real and what is fictional, what is in my head or what's really happening, not knowing if missing a person means they're gone, forever.

Not knowing what is the line between life and death.

But for all I know I'm still standing and still active, trying to do my best and to do what makes me happy.

Cause I'm still here, on this effin planet so lets make it a bit more bearable, shall we ?

Don't have much to add tonight,

Except that how amazing is this first 2023 series from a photoshoot I did with Dame Tenebra right ?

🖤

Credits to her, for being pure talent xx

Love,

Lorna

xxx