Leaving my cocoon for a new one

Hello Dears,

If you follow me on Instagram I explained briefly that I thought by coming home near Paris I was gonna flee my issues and will resolve everything. In fact, I was very happy being next to my boyfriend and friends , family. But as you may know things don’t always stay the way you want them to be ?
And I started the year, well very hardly.
I don’t know the future I might be naive to still have some little hope in me, but I can definitely say that I lost my rock my everything. You will answer “yeah but Lorna you know the only one who can save you is .. you , you know that?”
Well, I totally forgot. I just put all my hopes and fears on him and now I just feel drained and empty.
And knowing my condition it’s very very hard.
So good thing that I moved to Paris once again is that my mental health is more secure here, I m in a very good place were people are really helping and I’m so so grateful for that.
Also, it “helped” me bond again with my family and I forgot how important that can be.

Cherish your loved ones everyday, you never know what can happen in the future.

On a more cheerful note just enjoy this outfit photoshoot 😂😘

Outfit:

Béret from H&M
Vintage thrift shirt
Pimkie faux leather skirt
Kiabi coat
Dr Martens Dante White shoes

Love,

Lorna

Black and Bowie

Hello Dears,
And welcome to 2020 💫
I hope you all spent (or not) this new years eve the way you wanted it. I was invited by a lovely friend of mine, but actually was not able to make it through the transports on this day.
Why you'll ask ?
I don' know... I was all ready, I loved my make up, I even bought a bottle of wine (for someone who doesn't drink I went to seek for the one I like the most lol), I was on time and all ... But when I arrived at the station they changed the platform (to an unknown and unreachable one ?? why , why do you do that French rail service of my *** ___ hm sorry, lets continue)
and all the people were shouting and screaming (some of them maybe already in the mood of festivities..) and that just made me so anxious I couldn't breathe. First, they changed something , and I hate changes lol, and then the crowd ugh. I could have arrived later, took my time to search for the said platform, and went on another train. But it just made me feel so bad I had no other thing in mind that coming home.
But even then, I just felt so guilty... Not being able to go out like " a normal person " and sometimes I wish I could. I wouldn't lie, most of the times I'd rather stay home in my PJs. But not when I'm invited by people I like, I mean I really feel guilty afterwards.
Thanks to some people I finally cheered up a little, enjoyed a pizza and a cartoon before going to bed lol.
But I really wanna say that for those who could not understand me on this point, I think even if I'd described the problem in any sort of possible ways they won't understand because they are not able to feel the anxiety like I do. And hopefully for them ! I don't wish that to anyone.
But I need to start myself to accept that people will not understand me all the time.
And not waiting on them to be the way I would like them to be. Because they're not. And they will never be.

Outfit:

Headband by Stradivarius
Half Wig from AliExpress
Dress from Dresslily
Belt from Collectif Clothing
Sock , Happy Socks
Dr Martens Alt Bex

Love,

Lorna

xxx